Or so they say. I can only imagine the devastation that many Americans have endured over the past week in regards to Hurricane Sandy. Side note, why are hurricanes always named happy names? Why not Hurricane Terror or Hurricane Destruction? Anyway, I hope that everyone is getting the help they need and returning back to what made them happy before the hurricane. While I don’t mean to trivialize the destruction that Sandy caused, that there is truly a rainbow after every storm…hurricane…or whatever rain metaphor you want to use for a difficult time in your life.
I mean here I am in Seattle. I have to stop and realize I have all ready come full circle. That first post I wrote was in a Starbucks in San Diego and now I’m writing this post in a Starbucks in Seattle! How did I get here? Oh, that ‘s right! I put my mind to something and here I am. It really was that simple and now I have my rainbow. If I have my rainbow, why does it feel like I’m in the middle of a storm?
I took the above photo while in Starbucks. I just so happened to look up and I saw this beautiful rainbow. I was applying for jobs at the time and it has been such a frustrating experience. I mentioned the internship I applied for in my last post. You all would have been so proud, I was a total DIVA and called to see if I could schedule an interview. Turns out the position had been filled in NYC of all places but the HR person said to shoot her my resume just in case something came up. Something please come up!
I am not going to lie, I was disappointed. I guess a part me thought if I just made it here, if I just applied, it would all work out. I’m emotional as I write this because I am going through so much at this time in my life. Not in a bad way. I mean coming to terms with my sexuality, moving to Seattle on my own and just being a 25 year old in today’s world is hard enough without the added stress of finding your passion. Finding that thing you were put on this planet to do. I feel like I know what my passion is. It is entertainment news writing, it is writing in general and that scares me to kind of know that. What if I’m not good enough? What if I can’t handle the pressure? What if people don’t see my potential?
The world is full of “What If” scenarios and I CANNOT and WILL NOT let that stop me from pursuing my dream here in Seattle. My journey is just taking a detour and that detour may get me there a little quicker than I thought. So to wrap things up, I hope everyone is doing great and following your hearts, dreams and passions. Life is too short not to! Maybe I am in storm or maybe I just need to look for that rainbow. Always know, things may get tough, but after every storm there is always a rainbow!